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  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: nothing
  • Reading: signs.
  • Eating: because I have to.
  • Drinking: I wish.

I was a relatively happy child.

Certainly very happy for one who never fit in well with others.

I only needed one or two friends.

It wasn't until my teen years that I was ever miserable.

And even then, I was not truly depressed. Not in a clinical sense.

College had new stresses, but also good, better things.

It was the years after 30 that started to really suck.

This is what I think of when I hear someone still saying "It gets better".


Can you tell me when?

I'm probably older than you, and even with perspective that allows me to not cry and scream about things like I did at 20, I do NOT feel better.

Calmer in itself is not better.

What am I even saying?

This isn't what "It gets better" is about, I know. But I'm just saying, I may have improved, but the general public is still the general public. Life is still life. Things still cost money, and it still doesn't grow on trees. But that whole message of "It gets better" somehow seems to imply that you are not the only thing that will change in such a way- that external circumstances will improve, too. 

Which is bullshit.

Things will change.

Everything changes.

But whether for better or worse, you cannot guarantee.

My life is different than 10 or 20 years ago.

Is it better?

That is very hard to say. Better in some ways, worse in others. 


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Kathleen Shimp
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I am an ancient being who graduated with a BFA back in the 1990's. I love my cats. I'm an old-school Goth but also like a good laugh.

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rachelillustrates Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
Hey, thanks for the +Watch :)
ulimann644 Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanx for watching my group...
isaacvc Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2012  Professional General Artist
thanks for the watch :)
xKrittterz Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm glad your enjoying them. but also sad that you can relate.
belavrana Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2012  Professional General Artist
Well, yeah. There's that...
xKrittterz Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug: Cheer up!
xKrittterz Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav! :)
yellowpin Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2009  Professional Interface Designer
thanks for the favvie and comment! :> :heart:
tvlookplay Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
great work keep it up!
let--me--out Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2009   Writer
thx for the fave + watch XD
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